Fic: "The Worst Of All Sins"

[wave_of_sorrow]

Title: The Worst Of All Sins
Author: wave_of_sorrow
Character(s)/Pairing(s): Holmes/Watson
Rating: R
Word Count: 1,822
Disclaimer: Don't own. Don't claim. No money being made.
Summary: It was merely a spasm, a twitch of his hand written off as tiredness that started it all.
Spoilers/Warnings: Character death, angst, crazy typography, insanity all around, did I mention the angst yet? Aka "creepy, possibly traumatizing, crazy fic" as blacktablet and I lovingly dubbed it.
A/N: Fill for a prompt at shkinkmeme Thank you to wheres_walnut for helping me figure out how to post this and to the anon at the kinkmeme who came up with this idea!
For the lovely blacktablet for encouraging my craziness, holding my hand and telling me to post this before I freak out and delete it. I wouldn't be posting it if it weren't for you, bb. <3

You have no idea how long it took to post this. It's the Fic of Doom. I know, this totally messes with my layout, but I don't really care all that much anymore.

Any and all feedback would be very much appreciated, bbs!




















Comments

[blacktablet.livejournal.com]

Oh dear gods. ♥ This is still as horrifying and wonderful as it was when I read the story for the first time. It's like being punched in the gut, it makes you a bit nauseous and a bit delirious (in the good way) and it has such an impact on you.

And the fact that it's Holmes and Watson this happens to is just... heart-breaking. The "I trust you" with that font kills me.

So glad that I encouraged you to post this. <3

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you, bb! If you hadn't encouraged me this file would be gathering dust on my hard drive right now while I try to write something else. ♥♥♥

Also, you may expect a detailed reply to our email soon. With more crazy rambling. <3

[rioko-avalon.livejournal.com]

That made my heart hurt ache.





... And you captured it romantically and realistically.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you! ♥

[toestastegood.livejournal.com]

Wow. I hardly know how to leave feedback for this at all other than to let you know that it was an absolutely stunning read. It's almost like e e cummings, the way you decided to use format and lay-out itself as part of the story. And, gosh, so dark and so sad. The theme throughout of despair and the seven deadly sins, and the stages of grief, worked so well to tie the whole thing together. I'll definitely be reccing this at my journal this weekend. It's going to stay with me for a long while.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow. Thanks a lot! I've always wanted to try something like this with the format and typography and such and I'm so glad to hear it worked out! Thank you for reading and commenting! ♥

[cutebutpsycho99.livejournal.com]

I am impressed by the format job you did. It was totally worth it, especially the part about the brain surgery. It did enhance everything and was creepy and sad at the same time.

It was also very realistic from what I've experienced. Sometimes it's just hard to let go, especially when it always seems like there's a possible solution around the corner.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you, bb! Glad you liked it! ♥

[ewanspotter.livejournal.com]

I'll be in my bunk. Crying.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

♥♥♥

[xsolitary-cynic.livejournal.com]

Oh my God.
I managed to keep from crying up til the last section, now I can't see what I'm typing. The formatting and everything about it is so powerful and, just, wow. This really, really hit home. Hauntingly beautiful and sad and and :c
Perfect as always. You never cease to blow me away.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

*hands tissues* I'm glad you liked it, bb. Thank you for reading and commenting! ♥

[crimson-adder.livejournal.com]

Okay, so as the OP I'm going nonymous for this, because. Wow. It's amazing and beautiful and terrifying and perfect.
I had to put off reading it until I could read it all in one go, and I'm so glad I did, because the rhythm and the visual art of it is so incredibly intense.
This is exactly how it needed to be. I couldn't even think of any way that someone could capture the dream-like quality that I had in my head, but you found it and made it extraordinary and painful, and yeah, a little traumatic, but in a good way.
I love the fonts and the formatting spacing, and reading it I got the idea of how it would sound, with voices overlapping and pauses and the ticking of the clock.

Wow. <3
/gushing praise

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you! I'm glad to hear I could convey all those things. :> To be honest, I had no idea it was going to turn out this way, but as I was typing the very first line I thought I'd write "sin" in red and then one thing led to another and I went crazy on the formatting. :D I'm glad you liked it, bb! ♥

[hagstrom]

I Hate you. You're the first person ever to actually make me feel so...hopeless while reading a fic!

Nah! I dont hate you, you're just awesome because you can be sure this is the first time i read a fic in this kind of format...and somehow it gives it even more of a feeling, more emotion with the arrangement of the words, across and falling down, in gray and black and in different fonts, and everywhere when its Holmes, and like somebody else already said it has SUCH an impact on the reader that few fictions can achieve.

And also, the description of the phases, and how they both deal with them in different times...and the worst of all, that the situation is so very common makes it all worst.

I guess your description as "creepy, possibly traumatizing, crazy fic" fits really well, especially the "traumatizing" bit.

But well, what i meant to say is that you rocked my socks with this!

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Wow. Thank you! I'm happy to hear this worked for you! ♥♥♥

[heeeeres-katey.livejournal.com]

You're my favourite writer ever. *wipes eyes*

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you, bb! ♥

[flying-android.livejournal.com]

I'm tearing up, seriously. I mean, I know I'm tired but damm, that hit hard. Somehow it was as much the way it was set out as the words themselves that was so effective although I couldn't tell you why that was. Holmes' desperation was so painful. This was just so brilliantly done and I'd read it again but I've only just stopped crying. And I'm so so glad you didn't delete this - to delete something as good as this would have been a true loss.

Congratulations are most definitely in order.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh gods, I'm making everybody cry. *hands tissues* Wow, thank you! I really wanted Holmes' desperation to be painful to read, but I wasn't quite sure if I managed to accomplish that. So I'm very glad to hear it worked for you! :)

Thank you for reading and commenting, bb! ♥

[rechteckig.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful! Your Watson broke my heart.
Keep on writing, you brilliant thing.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you, bb! :3

[caleno.livejournal.com]

beautiful ... thanks so much

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[amaraal.livejournal.com]

May I have a tissue, too? Absolutely stunning... As I wrote you before: Never underestimate your writing (and formatting) skills. Ever! I knew, why I put you on my friends list :)

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh dear...I'm making everybody cry...D: *hands tissues*

Thank you, bb! I'm happy to hear you liked it! ♥

[whichwanderer]

The last section is probably what gets me the most. Not even the descriptions of the pain and despair got to me as much as those last lines. It's like something twisting my heart and it hurts.

I love the way you formatted everything and I'm in love with how you presented time throughout the fic.

This is definitely going into my memories

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you, bb! I'm so glad to hear it worked for you! :) ♥♥♥

[angelnetgirl.livejournal.com]

I saw the words "Character Death" and I backed away but then I saw you were the author, and damn I had no choice.

Its beautiful and devastating, it hurts in the most amazing, agonising way. If only we are all so lucky as to have someone love us so much. I love the formatting, it gives the words even more impact.

OK I will be in corner crying.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

*hands tissues* I didn't think I'd actually make people cry with this. *squeezes*

Thank you for reading and especially for commenting! ♥

[jenlee1.livejournal.com]

Whew! This is amazing.

The layout, with the different fonts and sizes and colors, is incredibly effective - it really adds to the eerie, dream-like feel, and Holmes' desperation and despair, as well as the inexorable progression of time, come through very vividly. It hurt to read this, in the best possible way.

*mems*

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

I really wanted this to be about the pointless struggle to delay the inevitable. I'm glad it worked for you! Thank you for reading and commenting, bb! ♥♥♥

[doves-wing.livejournal.com]

Ouch. Terrifying, in a way. Creepy, unbelievably sad, and totally, utterly brilliant =P Totally going in my bookmarks cause *wow*. I can't think of a situation that would annoy and drive Holmes crazy more.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad it worked for you. ♥

[jdolls-passions.livejournal.com]

Supremely original, and extremely well written.
Realistic insight into 'real life' as well.

Hats off to you...

:)

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad to hear it was realistic. :) ♥

[misanthropion.livejournal.com]

Oh my God. I love that style. Totally made the emotions more real to me. :-( So sad. asdkfjasdf. It's wonderful, guh.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad you liked it! ♥

[schonste.livejournal.com]

oh my freakin god

I'M BAWLIN

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

*hands out tissues* ♥♥♥

[viva-gloria.livejournal.com]

That is ... harrowing: marvellous: tear-inducing: beautiful: heartbreaking.

Thank you (for making me cry).

Wow. And Ow.

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

*gives tissues* I didn't think I'd make people cry. D:

Thank you for reading and commenting! I'm glad you liked it, bb!♥

[miss-music666.livejournal.com]

i was happy before i read this. i'd just watched a Doctor Who episode i'd been chasing around forever, and i made me all happy.

then this happened to me, and now i'm sort of traumatized... :(

this was heart-wrenchingly beautiful. ♥

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

I'd apologize for traumatizing you, but that kinda was the point of the fic. ;D

Thank you for reading and commenting, bb! ♥

[kattahj.livejournal.com]

Very gorgeous, belieavable and haunting. The combination of despair and the writing style gave me gaimanesque vibes, are those intentional?

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Yes, those were intentional. (I was also trying to do something in the style of House of Leaves.) :3

[teriyaki-08.livejournal.com]

Wow. Absolutely wonderful! Heartbreaking and tearjerking and all things good angst fiction should be. I truly commend you on your layout technique, that definitely added a really invaluable dimension to the experience of reading it. Particularly when Holmes was succombing to despair and his thoughts were all mixed up and difficult to follow. A wonderful piece of fanfiction! <3

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! I was especially worried about the part where Holmes despairs, as it was particularly difficult to do. I'm very glad to hear it worked for you, bb! <3

[kichisama.livejournal.com]

waaahh! i'm crying! this is so fucking sad and brilliant. i need a fucking cigarette, holy shit this was so sad.

btw the typogrophy was neat I think it just seemed to fit somehow, I wish I could explain but I can't i gotta blow my nose

[wave-of-sorrow.livejournal.com]

*gives tissues* I'm glad you liked it, bb. Thanks for reading and commenting! <3